Writers block.... When you are stuck at an impasse. There are many things to help with this. Pinterest is full of them. Blog post ideas, blog topics, 600 great ideas for your blog. I have read so many. The problem is, the only thing swirling around in my head is this. Blogging is damn tough.
Of course you are just typing your thoughts, your passions, how hard can this be? Aside from just writing the personal stories from my life I thought to branch out. To explore the world of blogging. It is quite a place. I have read alot of articles on what mistakes people make in blogging to what makes your blog successful, what makes some posts go viral. I have to admit I was intrigued. I want to be part of this. It is exciting thinking that people out in the world could possibly enjoy reading your blog. There are mommy bloggers, daddy bloggers, fashion bloggers, beauty bloggers, even video bloggers (vloggers) there are so many kinds. Where do I fit in, where is my niche?
Lets be honest here, I never aspired to be writer, if I was asked what a the difference between a noun and a verb I would have to google. School wasnt my forte, paying attention and retaining this information even less. I dont see myself as a famous blogger or one who is paid to write articles. I am just one in the many hoping to entertain.
You meet all types of people in the blogging world. There are ones who are willing to extend the olive branch and give you a little insight, some advice, even grab your hand and pull you up a bit. Than there are others. If you are a beginner blogger I dont even think you rank in their books. Dont get me wrong, I have met a lot of great people. Certain ones in particular who go out of their way to help me and I am ever so grateful. But it also feels a little like highschool sometimes where you are left out of the clique.
I may have lost my way in the last little bit. I was caught up in numbers. How many people look at my blog. If you read my previous posts, especially the one about my disaster banana bread you know I am a results oriented person. I want the big bang before the work. I want it all NOW. This is no different, I am me after all. Why do I not have more followers? There has to be something wrong with my numbers, I whine to my husband. But alas the numbers do not lie. I do not have a large follower base, I wouldnt even call it a base it is so small. I was devastated. How could I have so few? Was my blog that bad?
I ask my Father, how did you like my last post? His reply "You're losing me, I like your stories about you and your life". So now I am thinking over and over "You're losing me", "You're losing me". If I cannot keep my father interested in my blog well by golly lets just throw in the towel. I read somewhere they said "It doesnt matter if you have 50,000 views daily on your blog it matters how many followers you have. Content is king they tell you. Content is King..... So I figure, who is this "content" and where is he king of so I can go choke him.
With all my devastating news pouring out to my husband he gives me his pep talk. Now, sitting humbled I realize. I started all this for ME! I spent the last year digging myself out of the devastating effects that post partum depression buried me under. I started writing because it made me happy. Now is this making me happy what I am doing? Worrying about the numbers, trying to please others, what they want to read what they want me to write. The answer is no. I can scroll through that article on pinterest of 600 blog ideas and if one doesnt touch me, I cant write about it.
Take this for example, I was to write a blog about a cake I made. In the world of blogging you can share your blog through blog sharing. There is one for recipes. I thought, hey, I can submit one about the cake I made for my sisters Birthday. The thing is when it comes down to it. I am not a food blogger, I hate cooking!!! HATE IT. I like to bake but I am not overly good (results oriented and I ruin alot of baking rushing it) So tonight, as I am trying my best to get a good picture of this cake, a picture worthy of some of the food blogs I have read, it hit me. What in the world are you doing? I dont have the right lighting, I dont have a decadent looking piece of cake, I mean it was damn good, but was it magazine picture worthy? no lol.
So as I sit here frustrated I think about why I started and where I have come from since than. I really only started to blog seriously, just shy of two months ago. What was I expecting? I need to focus on where I did come and what I have achieved rather than dwell on what I havent. In just under two short months my blog has jumped over 10,000 views. I wrote a post on April 2nd with excitement that just over 2,000 people had viewed my blog. I now have over 12,000 views. Now whomever said that it doesnt matter how many people view your blog it is about the followers, he/she can piss off. I will take these views as my own personal accomplishment. I worked damn hard to get here. I guess, if you are reading this, I am doing something right :)
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