I guess lets get this out of the way first. I love my children. To the core. They are my life, my everything, I would give my life for them.
In saying that. They drive me fuckin crazy!!! They are 2 and 4, yes such a blissful age. The fights between the two girls have started. Why they have to fight over the stupidest of things I will never know. The mind of a child is a wondrous thing. She took my pony, she pulled my hair, she took my spot she stole my cookie. On and on and on.
Now I know that having children, this is life. I cannot wait until these little ones are old enough to be a little more self sufficient. Oh I dream of the day. My day pretty much sounds like this
- Can I have milk?
- I want toast
- I dont want my cereal
- Can I have your cereal
- I want more toast (I have finally sat down to eat)
- Ellie took my toast
- I want to watch Ponies
- Some fighting and crying
- I want a drink
- I need you to wipe my bum
- Baby brings me her diaper and wipes (At this point I tell her, if you are bringing me this, its time to use the potty!)
- Inaudible crying
- Im hungry
- I want to color - Uncaps all the felts.......Im done
- I want to play playdoh - All over the table and floor in little bits.... Im done
- Read me a book
- Where is grandma?
- I dont wanna eat dinner
- Ellie stole my toy
- I dont want to go to bed
This my friends is what they should have printed on condom packages. Its a wonder I don't drink. But I do drink coffee. And tons of it!
Being a stay at home mom was never in the cards for me. Its a hard job. Working full time, I can say in all out honesty that being a stay at home mom is harder than going to work everyday. I choose to go to work. I think very highly of the ones who are stay at home moms. When I stay at home on the weekend with these little monsters I am WIPED OUT!!! Going to work is getting a break
I long for the days when wiping of bums is behind me. The days where if you are thirsty you can pour your own drink without pouring it all over the floor. If you are hungry than you can make your own snack. However, I am sure with each age comes new difficulties.
I love being a mom. But some days I have to rant. Don't we all? It isn't all sunshine and rainbows. We have our days. We have wonderful days. These girls light up my life like no other. But they also turn my hair grey faster than the speed of light.
How they can destroy a room in two hours is mind boggling to me. I took a nap when my husband came home today. I woke up and it was like a tornado hit the livingroom. I have never been one for clutter, I will never have that china cabinet with all the shit in it, because it looks messy to me. I dont like bookshelves because they look messy to me. I like things in their place and things tidy.....
My life is no longer a tidy organized place. I live amongst disarray and destruction named Abby and Ellie
Of course I know there will come a day I will miss these days. I will long for my little loud children needing my help and destroying my house. But for now, I deserve my Mommy rant.
They are little buggers these two.
But they are my little buggers, and I love em.